but lately, a realization has dawned on me.. my infatuation for Pattinson - now called RPattz - the actor - is already fading to oblivion..
at first, i didn't know what really attracted me or which one i prefered - is it the character or the actor? remembering Cullen's remark: "You can Google it", i became an obedient lamb who surfed the net and googled for RPattz pics and info..
results? well, RPattz looked really good as a Vampire and a Wizard (Cedric Diggory) but as his normal self, he was full of stubbles, his hair was unkempt and unwashed, and he smokes.. not a pretty sight for a hunk..
oops, before you mock me or throw stones at me, i admit i also saw pics of him where he was clean-cut and ooozed with sex-appeal.. and yes, i know i shouldn't be judging one's personality through pictures only... but there was something in him that made me cringe and not think of him as Edward Cullen anymore..i still don't know what that "something" is..
anyway.. on to my realization... yesterday, i started reading again the PDF copies of the first chapters and snippets of the Twilight series (up to Midnight Sun).. by just reading the stories and internalizing the adjectives that Stephenie Meyer associated with her characters, i've come to my senses that i've actually fell in love with Edward Cullen, the vampire itself and not with the actor portraying him.. it's just like this: without makeup Rob Patts is not that hot..yeah, pretty lame analysis, huh...i guess, my habit of excessively getting all the information i could find about an actor or a celebrity i like had made me insane. now i think i was pathetic for liking RPattz so much.. fortunately, i've finally woken up.. sorry Rob lovers.. i dont have anything against you or Rob. i'm just happy because i've finally taken control of my fan-girling self..
nevertheless, i still want to have a copy of the book.. lucky me, my hubby promised that he's gonna get all the Twilight series and give it to me as his Xmas gift.. yipeee!! with that, i'll stay in love with Edward Cullen, the vampire - nothing more, nothing less..
FYI: i've actually first learned about Twilight through my online friend monique aka babymex .. every detail, info and all things Twilight, i learned from her page.. and for that i'm very much thankful to her for introducing me to one of the best-loved vampire story of all time.. thanks so much Monique!!
